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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 03:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

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So, i spoilt her more .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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What did i know ?

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

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But it wasn’t much.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

My ex moved on so fast. How can I overcome the pain?

One cannot live in the past .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Who then, do I blame.?

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I think the readers, may guess!

I never cut or harmed myself..

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I was very sick at this time too.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was 9 years of age.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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We all went to grammer schools

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I have no regrets .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Would this be the day?

When she asked me how she looked .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Im still living with it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She found it foreign!.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And i lived it daily.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I will be 64.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Ive learnt so much.

This is soul school!.

It was going to be , some day.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I write beautiful poetry .

I was seconnd youngest,

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

All the time i was locked up.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My family never makes their pension either.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We were not on the streets..

He knew the spot.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She wouldn,t have been !

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Put me off passion for life!!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I waited trembling.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He resisted the act ,that day.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Comes on , in middle age.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I said to her

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She married twice! .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My life is so biszare .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was scared of men, in general

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She was in good health!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

So whats the point in blame.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I don,t even have a pension.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She loved him until the end.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But, we were locked up after school.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I did it because my mum asked me too!