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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:29

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was seconnd youngest,

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She wouldn,t have been !

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

So whats the point in blame.

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My family never makes their pension either.

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I write beautiful poetry .

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was very sick at this time too.

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

It was going to be , some day.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was 9 years of age.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

All the time i was locked up.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Im still living with it.

What did i know ?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Who then, do I blame.?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I think the readers, may guess!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

We were not on the streets..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I waited trembling.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I never cut or harmed myself..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She was in good health!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Comes on , in middle age.

She loved him until the end.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Ive learnt so much.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I have no regrets .

We all went to grammer schools

He knew the spot.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I couldn’t, believe it.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I will be 64.

And i lived it daily.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was scared of men, in general

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I don,t even have a pension.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

One cannot live in the past .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She found it foreign!.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Especially a lifetime of it.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She married twice! .

So, i spoilt her more .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But ive been too sick for many years..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My life is so biszare .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But, we were locked up after school.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Would this be the day?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Put me off passion for life!!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But it wasn’t much.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

This is soul school!.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

When she asked me how she looked .

I said to her

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.